Sunday, July 6, 2008

An acoount of my life..

Life 10 years ago
Today's grown-up Asmita was a teenager of 13. The girl was much simpler and happy with her the then friends and her life was much easier at that time. Going to school everyday, going to Drawing school and Recitation club every sunday, playing badminton during some winter days(No not throughout the winter, but some 10-15 days managed from her busy schedule!!) and mostly drowning herself in a pile of story books. Sleeping was her first job after returning from the school and the evenings were meant for studies (She was not a very good student but somehow she used to get bothered by the praises and rebukes of teachers in school, so she had to do regular homeworks and all just to be in the good book of teachers!) but the lonely nights were her own. I was in eighth standard then and I got my bedroom separated from my parents in class 7. So I used to enjoy reading till late night. I was mostly engrossed with BankimChandra and bit of Rabindranath. I started believing in love and tried to understand the meaning of Romance. My own stupid fairy world was created and eventually i realised i am too self-centred. Loving someone deeply may not be my business. I cried a lot after reading Jogajog or Char Adhyay but nobody was there to offer me a handkerchief then. I got my first camera, a kodak-kb10 in 97 puja. I was so happy with all these. Life was not like a box of chocolates but like a dairy milk. Always sweet always creamy always same..

Yes, 10 years ago life was simpler when I was enjoying the early days of my womanhood. And of course the life was a bit better without much worry and without much larger grief.


Life 5 years ago
I was an adult then, yes i was 18+. I was in college and i was in hostel then. My life is changed a lot in these few years. From the low spirit,less speaking girl i metamorphosized myself to a happy-go-lucky , jolly and messy college-girl. Still i was not worried not much at least not in the way i am worried today aout future. Somehow for the first time in my life i started believing that I can fly also.. In these 5 valuable years my taste for books and music have been changed a lot. I no more practice to draw a figure correctly, no more i try to express myself through the workds written by others. Yes both my drawing class and recitation club were gone. The difference is that I was not much sorry to leave the drawing class but was a bit more sorry to loose the skill of recitation. I attended my first college fest REBECA- 2004 with much enthusiasim, I spent half of the night watching different programs and rest of the night dancing in the floor. First night spent under the open sky. I understood different dimensions of friendship from that time onwards. I started listening Fossils, started listening Pink Floyd and I started reading Sharadindu Bandopadhyay,started reading Sunil Ganguly,Samaresh majumdar, sirshendu mukhopadhyay and a lot more different contemporary bengali novels. Still life was so different!!
5 years ago I was feeling grea8!!!

Life 1 year ago
I was confused and aimless of course not shameless too much. I said GoodBye to my employer (I was working for one of the greatest Indian software company..) and joined university again for further studies. I was neither happy nor sad to take the decision, rather i would say i was comfortably numb at that time and that numbeness is continued till today. I left Blore as well. Blore - the city which taught me how to live by my own, taught me how to manage office work, taught me how to earn. Yes I learnt also.. I learnt how it feels being homeless, i learnt how to be diplomatic, i learnt how to tackle odds when you are alone and of course i learnt how to stand up again after being ruined. Thanking all of them, i boarded the flight SG-521 and came back home..

Life tomorrow
Don' have a the slightest idea what to do next. May be i will go for a job again, may be i will go for further studies. But surely my reading habit will change. I will try to play guitar more swiftly and i will re discover myself throughout the beautiful journey called life..

I tag Suman and Tina to write on the same topic.. Have the challenge and write it down whenever u have time.. get ready !!

10 comments:

Unknown said...

At last a mystery revealed..i found a friend who is deep enough to get the touch of womanhood..its not at all "another brick in the WALL"....

Suman said...

Hmm… Its look like Asmita travels quite a long way of life. I have no idea about “Asmita 10 years ago”, about “Asmita 5 years ego”, not even about “Asmita 1 year ago”. I know you only for last 1 year! You are what you are. That is more important. Changes are obvious! Do not require to resist against this. However be spontaneous as you are. ;) My good wishes will always with you throughout your journey. :)

Asmita said...

@Rajarshi,
Don't you know me after 6 yrs of meeting me for the first time??

@Suman,
Was it not a fun to know about the past of a friend??

Unknown said...

its all about the journey of life through various stages....i loved teen ager asmita(from this piece of jhorapata...the way asu described tht lil asu here)...and i love the clg going bindas ,bawalbaaz but sensitive and adjustable, down to earth ,intelligent asmita(not all that she had mentioned in jhorapata..but as far as i kno this clg going asmita)...i love the bangalorean asmita (i came to kno her professional life from jhorapata...but she might be corporate at tht time but i have always seen her in the eyes of an informal friend ...and did as usual all the mastis wid her..i can still remember the days we used to be together and njoyed ourselves a lot at bangalore...)i wish asmita's success in all over the journey of life...may she be blessed with watever she wants in life...and then we'll discover asmita after 10 yrs how she went thru...i just wanna say i'll be always their by ur side..i love u...no matter of ur ages..[:)]

Asmita said...

@Tina,
Thanku babydoll!!!
After 10 yrs may be i will be the CEO of some great company and i will surely offer u a job with high salary if u like to have my offer!! [:P]

Unknown said...

sure dear..i m dying to get the offer...

Suman said...

Hmm… May be or may not be fun to know about a friend’s past. Never think that way. I am bit confused right now. Anyway fun ki na jani na tobe kharap lage ni. :)

Biman said...

i am not a regular blogger..today just accidentally i have visited asmita's blog..actually i am not a living in the moment person..and i have an incurable desease..what is called nostalgia..i always try to look back...and try to see my past again...memories are always treasure for me...dosent matter whether it is good or bad...may be thats the reason that i like the way u described ur last 10 years...rather say two phases of ur life...i dont know after 5years whether we'll in touch or not..but i must visit jhorapata after 5 years to see the changes of asmita after 5years...i dont say you "plz dont change urself be like what u r"..coz change is always good..wish u will get everything what u want from ur life..be happy always :)

Incognito..........Revee said...

Hey Asmita.........Gr8 one.I love ur blogs......It gives me immense pleasure to read ur blogs.

Asmita said...

Thank you Incognito!