What is so worthy about my life?

At 4:00am in the morning I am still awake and writing this pretty boring stuff and even thinking of publishing it so that you can go through and guess my mental condition. Thanks to this blogging culture I have also developed the practice to share my private emotions with you. ‘You’ means public. The public—the word which I never ever thought to care much.Got enough bored with the introduction part? Then let us move to the worthy part of this thing. Wait. Worthy-what the word exactly means? Are you clicking on the dictionary icon installed on your desktop?? Or you are thinking of giving me some examples of living a life worthy, citing example from your own life? No need to do that. Actually being a born pessimist, I know rather believe everyone’s life is fulfilled as he/she wants except me. Or it may be so that everybody around me is having a successful life indeed. Anyway I am not discussing about success but about worth of life.Life,my life. Before going into further detail I should mention that I am not insomniac. In fact I am feeling so sleepy that I can’t even type my words properly in an organized way. Anyway you know Bill Gates and Microsoft and the wonderful s/w Microsoft words. SO whenever I am typing any word incorrectly, missing any letter in a particular word MSWord is prompting me to make it correct. Life is so easy here.no? You have some limited choices and you are selecting the correct one from those. But I did not have much choice but to stay awake in the night as per my Manager’s instruction and of course as my project demanded.
Not always, but sometimes I think what the hell I am doing here sitting in my cubicle at this hour trying hard to keep my eyes wide opened and trying to read some worthless time pass Sidney Sheldon. Seriously sometimes I think of leaving my job and going back to my home and doing nothing at all.Nothing means absolutely nothing but to destroy my parents’ bank-balance. Oh! While talking about bank-balance I remember I have my own bank account also and yes, to my utter disbelief I have some savings also. Some savings so that I can apply to some universities even if my greatest support ever(of course my parents!) do not support this ‘utterly butterly wrong’ ambition. But still I don’t have any particular plan and think of nothing particular at all. Oh God! Why am I so dumb and numb while everybody around me is bright enough. Sometimes I feel the life will go on as it is going on. It is neither bad nor good but yet someway peaceful and without complications.(I hate complications and controversies and tried to avoid them all through my life!!)but definitely not worthy at all. Yes this mechanical life is not worthy at all and believe me nothing is so serious to write about this weird life any more!!!.
I promise to come back to you when I can serve you with some spicy news or at least some positive updates about my life and altogether. Till then Bye.….